Emotions are Hard.

I had a coffee date today with someone who I haven't seen in a while. Let's call her Sarah, for the sake of keeping the innocent innocent.
Sarah and I have a weird relationship; maybe a bit tenuous. We don't speak the same language. She pushes my buttons and I'm sure I push hers. So we don't get together a lot. Once in a while, I guess to keep the relationship going. I'm not sure, actually. I think I might look a little bit more closely at that.

So we were talking about this and that: kids, weather, weekend plans. And then the subject of my (unfinished) kitchen came up. I always feel a little activated when people ask me about my kitchen, or the state of my house in general. The wife of a builder, we joke that the home is always in some state of remodeling (read: disrepair). So I get antsy when people ask, a little embarrassed, and I start to wonder if people think I'm not trying hard enough, I'm not good at follow through, I'm general crap, etcetera.

But actually the truth about the kitchen is that our refinance (and equity loan) fell through. Long story. Guilt attached. We'll get to that on one of these blog posts someday soon. So it turned into a financial discussion.

I'll just say it - I have some financial blocks. I'm working through them. (If you have ideas on working through financial blocks, please email me!!