Spinning.

I'm struggling right now. 
I see all of these people creating new things. Working new lives and diving in head first.
And I am struggling.

I have been trying, for some time now, to figure out a way to make things work. I am trying to put all of the various things that I do under one umbrella. To make them feel more cohesive. To marry my life together a little better. I'm trying to balance. And I'm trying to make it work.

How many times did I use the word "trying"? Four.

I want to stop trying. I want flow. I want ease and freedom and joy. So why am I spinning? 

SAs soon as I wrote "spinning", I envisioned the troupe of Whirling Dervishes that I watched in the late 1990s in college. They were mesmerizing to watch, this meditation in motion. Whirling Dervishes are famous for spinning.

This Sufi practice is one method of connection with the Divine through the body. 

It feels like a message from the Universe - sometimes we need to give in to the spin, flow with what is presented to you. Move into that space of not knowing, not trying.

It's time to move the body, release the storyline, the "how" and the questioning. Move the energy out of my system and raise my vibration.

So I put on this song. And I danced.